j u l i ette :)

two posts in a day! gasp gasp
i don't want to study right now so i think i'll write. too lazy to capitalize...
fridays are always interesting days. beside print date, which, of course, is always interesting.

in apes we were doing population graphs, and when she gave us the assignment i really had NO IDEA what was going on...but i'm not very comfortable asking ms. o'shea questions, idk why >< rishi was like, karen, you're in calculus, you can do this -_- and i was like but i don't know how to draw the line graph!

apparently i said this a little too loudly and ms. o'shea turned around and said "did i just hear someone say 'i don't know how to draw a line graph?'" i gasped and my face turned completely red, so i immediately looked down at my paper and started labeling my axes...and rishi pointed at me, then said "it's okay, i'm already making fun of her for it." and ms. o'shea was like "karen? do you need any help? are you okay?" and i looked up and my face was SO HOT as i said no, it's okay, i can do it on my own... :'D she had this look on her face (one on the left!):


..except with her EYES OPEN, yes. yeah i get that it's an ugly picture of me, sh-ush.

i really think i should...
finish apes
study chem
finish uc statements
finish rec letter


AHH. okay off to work.

Hit the ground, look around.

February really is hell. Juniors just got out of hell week and I'm surprised I got out of it alive...without my grades dropping all that much. My math grade keeps going up, thank goodness this semester is so much better than the last. I saw my APUSH grade and was really confused...because my grade shot up 14% with the midterm, but Kerwin took out the score and it's still the same...so I'm really confused. I think maybe Paulazzo messed up her class curve and the teachers have to redo it again. I feel bad for her but I wish she knew what she was doing; I can literally see the hate dancing in Kerwin's eyes sometimes :x

I think the only class I have to sacrifice for this semester is bio :\ I really don't think I can get it back up to an A by the end of the semester though I really would love it to. I've been trying harder but it just doesn't seem to work sometimes.

In other news, my emotions have been toying with me for a long time and I don't like that. I feel confused all the time now, and depressed. My friends have been going through ups and downs and I try to be with them the whole way, but it's really hard to do that sometimes. As for myself, I never share my real problems with my friends for fear I burden them. I'm willing to help them because their problems seem like I can help them out, but I hate sharing my problems because I'm always so scared I'll annoy my friends. As a result, not even my best friend knows "me" to a point. She knows me the best out of everyone else, but not "all".

There's also been a buttload of typical high school drama going around lately, every which way I turn, in x amount of cases. Both sides come to me for help so I can't help not being a part of it. It's difficult to cope with it, esp. because I have so much on my mind.