done.

I finished episode 16.
Without subs, so I only understood the "sarang hae" part.
Taekyung and Minyu end up together (now that I think about it, of course) but the spoilers were all wrong, haha. There is nothing especially squeal-worthy at the end, except...go see for yourself :) Despite that, it's still a happy ending, and I think I am satisfied.

I guess I'm happy that this addiction will stop, because it's rather unhealthy.
But I'm sorry to say goodbye to the drama, because it was definitely amazing.
I'm glad I can listen to the soundtrack without pause now.

Deep down though, I am pretty depressed about the whole drama.
This always happens, and I'm sure it'll pass in time.


Goodbye, You're Beautiful. Thanks for keeping my heart rate up the past few weeks. I will miss all of you very dearly.

such A.N.Jell's

waiting is so difficult.
the finale of you're beautiful comes out tomorrow, but I know it's not going to be hardsubbed until friday or saturday night.

I am currently surviving off MVs of the soundtrack before it comes out.
& in the meantime, UC statements need to be submitted. I can't when I'm in this stage though.
I don't know who still reads my blog (besides claire) but if you want to watch the drama, you should watch the first video :) it doesn't give anything away but it's super cute.

lovely day by park shin hye, who plays minam/minyu in the drama.



this one doesn't have a lot of cute scenes with taekyung/minyu but the song is really good, and park shin hye has an amazing voice.

sarang ge chu wo e-yo

my heart is calling - I don't know the artist name but the song is amazing




sigh, time to work.
hang in there, I can do this!! just a few more days...

nobody knows

today in english, julie came up to my desk and rapped out, "TIME IS TICKIN', TI-TIME IS TICKIN' TICKIN'...!" and i stared at her kind of ... o.O until she was like "you know? EPIK HIGH!" and i was like OH haha just kidding i knew that, at least kind of T-T

i feel like i've already made the pilgrimage from the rest of the world to the world that is kpop, but i need to keep up! ..once apps are done, i will. only two more days until the finale of you're beautiful! three, technically, but i'm assuming it'll be up by wednesday night, thursday on asian time. waiting is pure torture, because i've been boycotting the soundtrack until the final episode comes out so i won't be depressed when i hear the music, and A.N.Jell is losing plays in my library... saddening, it is.

i really, really hope taekyung ends with minyu, or i will spend a week not doing apps and just crying in the corner of my room. i'm not even kidding, that honestly sounds like something i would end up doing if that's what ends up happening.

over and out to homework. but before, love, love, love...

밤 12시 술 취해 지친 목소리
새벽 2시 차갑게 꺼진 전화기
아무도 내 맘을 모르죠
I can't stop, love love love
아파도 계속 반복하죠
I can't stop, love love love

있나요 사랑해본 적
영화처럼 첫 눈에 반해본 적
전화기를 붙들고 밤새본 적
세상에 자랑해본 적
쏟아지는 비속에서
기다려본 적
그를 향해 미친듯이
달려본 적
몰래 지켜본적 미쳐본적
다 보면서도 못본 척

있겠죠 사랑해본 적
기념일 때문에 가난해본 적
잘하고도 미안해 말해본 적
연애편지로 날 새본 적
가족과의 약속을 미뤄본 적
아프지말라 신께 빌어본 적
친굴 피해본 적 잃어본 적
가는 뒷모습 지켜본 적
can't stop love
미친듯 사랑했는데 왜
정말 난 잘해줬는데 왜
모든걸 다 줬었는데
you got me going crazy
can't stop love
죽도록 사랑했는데 왜
내 몸과 맘을 다 줬는데
모든걸 잃어버렸는데 어떻게

아무도 내 맘을 모르죠
I can't stop, love love love
아파도 계속 반복하죠
I can't stop, love love love

있나요 이별해본 적
빗물에 화장을 지워내본 적
긴 생머리 잘라내본 적
끊은 담배를 쥐어본 적
혹시라도 마주칠까
자릴 피해본 적
보내지도 못할 편지 적어본 적
술에 만취되서 전화 걸어본 적
여보세요 입이 얼어본 적

있겠죠 이별해본 적
사랑했던 만큼 미워해본 적
읽지도 못한 편지 찢어본 적
잊지도 못할 전화번호 지워본 적
기념일을 혼자 챙겨본 적
사진들을 다 불태워본 적
이 세상에 모든 이별 노래가
당신의 얘길꺼라 생각해본 적

can't stop love
미친듯 사랑했는데 왜
정말 난 잘해줬는데 왜
모든걸 다 줬었는데
you got me going crazy
can't stop love
죽도록 사랑했는데 왜
내 몸과 맘을 다 줬는데
모든걸 잃어버렸는데 어떻게
아무도 내 맘을 모르죠

I can't stop, love love love
아파도 계속 반복하죠
I can't stop, love love love

바보처럼 울고 또 술에 취하고
친구를 붙잡고 그 사람을 욕하고
시간이 지나고 또 술에 취하고
전화기를 붙잡고 say love

아무도 내 맘을 모르죠
I can't stop, love love love
아파도 계속 반복하죠
I can't stop, love love love
아무도 내 맘을 모르죠
(사실은 당신만 모르죠)
아파도 계속 반복하죠
이러다 언젠가 다시 마주치겠죠

strawberry days

tonight my mom called me to dinner and i was filling all the bowls of rice. i pulled the bowls from the dishwasher, four of them. it wasn't until i had finished the second one that i realized...why was i taking out four bowls, when there were only three people who would sit down to eat tonight?

i miss you, daddy.

and because i pushed his first picture off my main page, another one:


a.k.a the couple from you're beautiful ♥ WHY ARE THEY NOT DATING @_@
i want to watch, very badly.

go mi nam! a-anyeoung...

more than anything in the world (well, besides daddy coming home) i just want to watch you're beautiful right now. it is so hard to keep away from viikii or mysoju right now.

i'm staring at my calculus homework and A.N.JELL songs and jang geun suk and hongki all keep popping into my head. this is torture, torture i tell you! D:< especially because i'm determined not to touch any asian dramas until after apps are done...swearing off youtube altogether is really extreme, so i'll settle for boycotting dramas for now. i don't think i can last past the UC due date but i will persevere! sigh.

watching dramas always depresses me, but once i start one i can't stop, i have to finish it before i put it down. which is why i try not to watch them too much anymore. after winter sonata, i was depressed for a month, just really sluggish and low self-esteem...idk, i think it's just me ;__;

on the other hand i got a 9 on my french mock exam composition :D it made me really happy during second period, and since i'm always half dead in calculus it was a minor little plus for today.

short day tomorrow. i will finish calc homework & english, then do college essays. here i go.

speeding heart rate.

this deserves a new entry:

why hello there. guess what! new celebrity crush: (OH MY sdfklafn;)


jang geun suk from the drama you're beautiful. homygosdfshklj he is BEAUTIFUL. when i watched the first episode my eyes were completely on hongki so i didn't focus too much on him, but it's pretty obvious that he and park shin hye are the main characters, thus the ones who will be tied together in the end... if he just dropped the black hairdo and did this instead i'd fall instantly for him. and i think i have. oh my god. OH MY GOD, so frickin pretty and 可愛 ;___; it's been a longgg time since i've spazzed about any one celebrity guy.

i think he kind of looks like evan yo. but so much prettier. this picture is making my heart rate speed zomg wut ;__;

..hem. excuse me. *__* i try not to fangirl often, which is why i don't watch dramas anymore because then i get depressed about the cute guys and start major fangirl-spazzing. i'm also trying to avoid watching this drama until apps are over and most of the episodes are out, since i don't like waiting for them.

time to shower! i'm cold. once my brother gets out of our bathroom -__-